Thursday, October 8, 2009
Well i had my first doctor's appointment three weeks ago which would make me nine weeks pregnant and things didnt go quite as planned. They couldnt see our little one's heartbeat which should have been present at this point but the doctor was optimistic and said i just might not be quite as far along as i thought i was so he want to see me the following week. Well we went to that appointment and still no heartbeat but the baby had grown a little bit so we still kept our hopes high and he wanted to see me again the following week. Well today was my appointment when i got the horrible news that there was still no heartbeat the baby hasn't grown and my hormone levels have dropped. All of this meaning that i have miscarried the baby and it will not be joining our little family in six months. This has honestly been one of the hardest things me and Mike has gone through. I have never experienced heartache like this and i hope we never have to again. I am not writing about this so that everyone gives me pitty but i just want to let everyone know so that when i see them a couple months down the road they ask me why i'm not showing. We love you all and our greatful for everyone's prayers!